Thursday, December 18, 2008

First Ultra Sound Report - not so good news at 6w3d

(I am so thankful that my clinic puts all my lab results on the web and I can log on and get them after the fact. All blood work and ultrasound results are available to me 24/7. Even before I started IUIs this was avail. Don't they get bonus points for this?)

Today there were a lot of details that I wasn't able to process after he told me my embryo / fetus size was indicative of a future miscarriage. And no I don't curse him for his manners. He treated me like a grown up without much sugar coating and I respect that. "Have I seen cases like this that have gone on to be perfectly healthy births, absolutely. But it is quite rare."

First he measured my ovaries and commented that they are still quite large. And yes, I officially have moderate OHSS, but I could have told you that (and did) about the time I got my first BFP. Alas, there is nothing they can do about. Just deal with it.

Secondly he looked for the sac. He didn't hesitate to say it was smaller than he hoped for. The sac measures approx 8 x 8 x 7. It should be in the 14 range.

Thirdly he measured the Crown to Rump Length. It is measuring 2.43mm = 5w4d. Just about 1 week behind schedule. Should be 4mm

Finally he measured the Fetal Heart Rate. And there was some good news here. We saw it and heard it. 106 bpm. I believe that 110 is 'safe'. But 106 is good considering everything else is so behind.

When I looked at the monitor with the blow up of the heart fluttering, it was huge! This embryo / fetus is all heart and no body!

So I've already thrown this out to my online support group and have gotten some been there done that good news stories, and I've also read some not so good news storires of similar cases.

I'm trying out this mantra: There is nothing I can do about it, Worrying won't help anything, it's nobody's fault and if it goes it wasn't meant to stay.

But certainly this was big blow today; I walked in there with all the confidence in the world.

Waiting for the next u/s on Dec 29.

Nity got a BFP today after a FET!
Still Waiting had her 9 weeks appt and got a stellar report. She is celebrating.

PS, I read in the docs notes that they marked this IVF cycle, "Succesful, Viable Pregnancy". I believe for their CDC Success rates that if a heartbeat is heard, it is considered a win.


Mo and Will said...

Oh! I am so so sorry. I will hold out hope that this preganncy turns out to beat the odds, but having been there, i know your heart must be breaking right now.


Leigh said...

Oh my word, Virginia. That's terrible :)

I'm going to start praying for you.

Emily said...

Oh hon! I am sorry it was not better news. I am holding out hope...

Big huge hugs!

Clio said...

I have some astrological hope for you, and I guess that at this point you'll take it. :)
You have strong similarities going on from the time of your BFP with other ladies who had or are having healthy pregnancies.
also the past three years you had a lot of transformation in your life (a lot of death and rebirth so to speak) but you are now done with that. So, from an astrology standpoint, with what I've seen in other women's charts so far, you have a good chance that this pregnancy will stay.

Emily said...

Oh no. I'm sorry you had to get this news. I don't have much experience with these types of things (anything past IVF), but I do want to say, I hope your little one beats the odds.

Virginia said...

I just cherish you all! Clio, you are more appreciated than you know. I keep reading and reading. Apparently a tilted uterus can cause a measurement mis read in the early weeks. I have a tilted uterus - said previous GYNs (although the REs haven't noted that...?)

I'll be in limbo land until my next U/S. But limbo land is something that we IFs know a lot about. I am not alone.

hugs and kisses,

Melbagirl said...

Thinking of you and praying for you to hear some good news at your next scan xxoo

babydust81 said...

I am so sorry that it wasnt a better news. I will be keeping you and baby in my prayers. Hopefully your baby will beat the odds and come out stronger than what is noted at the moment. Love you babe. Take care of yourself okay.

Clio said...

I'm just stopping by to see how you are doing.
I'm glad I could be of some help. interesting info on your tilted uterus. Let's wait full of hope for your next u/s. Keep talking to that baby!